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so you refuse to see

Updated: May 2, 2023



Breakout Family,

Reflection -Transition part 2

I thought I should probably take the time to address the importance of reflecting and meditation (or pondering, thinking, or some people like to use the word reflection). Reflection to me is not just thinking but taking the time to do an assessment of my behaviors, thoughts, and feelings. I also, like to reflect spiritually when reading the word of God. I take the time to see how the word applies to my life and where I need to apply (or take action) of the word in my life Also, I reflect on what steps I need to make to BREAKOUT of a thing. (Person, Place, thought, or thing).


What are you thinking? What are you refusing to see? What are you choosing not to hear? What feelings are you refusing to acknowledge or express? Whew, I know though were some real questions that require thought. Take some time to breathe in and out for a moment. It is alright, it may take some time to reflect on these things. If you have difficulty figuring out some changes you need to make, ask a friend who tells the truth. It would not benefit you to ask someone who agrees with everything you say. If you are surrounded by people who agree with everything you say they’re not aiding you to have growth.


Anyhow, in the last post, I wrote I talked about transitioning and what it took for me to stop drinking. These next few blogs are to assist you in any transition. So, before I finally decided to not drink, I had to reflect on the statement from the man calling me weak-minded. I did not agree with him, however, when I chose to think about what he said, he was right. I came to the conclusion he was right when it was my second day of not drinking. I came home from work and I wanted to have a sip. I told myself this is my second day of no alcohol, I can do this. Before I knew it, later on, that day, I was on the floor crying. Never would I have thought I would be on the floor crying about not having my preferred beverage.


In addition to me laid out on my bedroom floor, I started to reflect on the statement that was made. Here I was a grown woman on the floor, I was full of hurt. I had several things going on in my life that I was not happy about-moving out of my apartment with my daughter's father, living with other people, and not being in the position or place I thought I should be as an adult. I never properly grieved my Grandfather's death, not getting the help I needed to process my emotions (Counseling.) It was also a struggle that I knew God was calling me OUT OF but, I did not want to give up my life of partying. I was losing childhood friends and others due to my faithful attendance at church and choosing not to drink. Many transitions were happening all at the same time in my life. I was not appropriately processing the loss of things, people, and places and had used drinking to fill several voids. I discovered this on the floor, once I took the time to reflect on my feelings, circumstances, and life.


Reflecting, at that time some people told me they were concerned about my drinking. I told them I am good and I don’t have a problem. However, it was a problem. If it is not a problem then just be done with a thing, a place, and a person. Anyone can talk all day about what they can stop doing, but it takes action and demonstration to support those words. Once, I decided to reflect, it enlightened some areas that could use some tweaking. Reflection requires you to be honest with yourself and the Lord. Taking the time to reflect on our behaviors to change, along with taking the action needed to change, assists with becoming spiritually mature and growing in the Lord.


When we take time to reflect on God's word. God says:

“So everyone who hears these words of Mine and acts on them, will be like a wise man [a far-sighted, practical, and sensible man] who built his house on the rock. Matt 7:24 AMP


Moneecia Johnson is a Minister & Ordained Chaplain in Cleveland Ohio. An avid writer, first aid certified mental health advocate, teacher, student, Intercessor, counselor and leader Moneecia is a Prophetic & Apostolic Voice faithfully supporting ministries regionally and internationally online including that of her own!


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